Welcome to my monthly progress post that happens on the 13th (unless I miss a month… twice in a row… oops), which marks the start of a new fiscal month here on Livid Lightning. Get it? XIII is my favourite number… because I like Final Fantasy XIII a lot? Jeez… tough crowd.
Hello, my treasured internet readers and valued view-generating spam-bots!
I’ve been a mess again, as usual, and think I’ve recovered from my latest emotional meltdown. That life thing is crazy, man. I’ll babble about some things that have been bugging me in my “Life & Other Things” section, if you are at all interested in reading me whine about stuff.
I consider 13 my lucky number. So it being Friday the 13th with a full moon makes it an extra special day for me. Here’s to hoping the universe sends those good vibes to anyone who needs them!
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Wow… I’ve been babbling on the WordPress side of the internet for 4 whole years now. It’s been a crazy ride, to say the least. I’ve got a deleted former blog under my belt, and lots of figuring out my miserable mental health drama happened here. Above all else, I’m grateful for all the cool people I’ve met, the near-infinite support, and the special connections I’ve formed over the years.
This will always be a place for me to vent, write stuff, and share my love of things with whomever in the world wants to stumble into my domain. Thank you for all the likes, comments, actual views, and spam-bot gatherings! From the bottom of my heart, everyone in this community means the world to me.
Total Views: 12,017 (+1,485)
Total Likes: 2851 (+328)
WordPress Followers: 237 (+22)
New Things Written Here
- UNC: Platinum Mass Effect 1 – Complete!
- Me in ‘Murica
- Underrated Ladies!
- N7: Platinum Mass Effect 2 (Week 1)
- N7: Platinum Mass Effect 2 (Week 2)
- N7: Platinum Mass Effect 2 (Week 3, 4, and 5)
- N7: Platinum Mass Effect 2 (Week 6-ish)
- The Wrath of 121++ Questions
- The Simpsons Tapped Out Review
- N7: Platinum Mass Effect 2 (Week 7)
- Niko Bellic, My Murderous Merc-For-Hire
- Tales of Lunis Aquaria Review
New Things Written Elsewhere
XIII Great Posts From Other Bloggers
I) Tankfest 2019 by Winst0lf Portal – It’s on my bucket list to drive a tank since I never got a chance to do so in my time with the Canadian Forces Army Reserves. I’ve enjoyed stealing them in many a Grand Theft Auto game, though!
II) Why My Cat is More Impressive Than Your Baby – Comic Review by Cupcakes and Machetes – As a sarcastic someone who is currently childless (and probably forever), but the proud owner of two su-purr supportive cats, I’d say this is a must read for me!
III) Stone Art by The Things I’ve Seen – One of my IRL BFFs is into painting rocks and all sorts of other creative things. It was cool to see this post about the solid art!
IV) Bad Video Game Voice Acting by Professional Moron – HA HA HA HA HA! (You read that in Tidus’ awful voice, I presume, eh? Sorry for any triggers.)
V) Why Play Games? by The Gaming Diaries – A great post that highlights the good things about gaming. Your enjoyment is never a waste of time.
VI) Knights and Bikes Review by Frostilyte – The title of this game alone had me intrigued, but the excellent review is also worthy of attention.
VII) The Broken Rose: Chapter 17 – Gilding the Lily by The Shameful Narcissist – Gah! I’m falling behind on TSN’s epic fanfic, but here’s where I need to resume whenever my mind can concentrate again.
VIII) The Guide on Being a Mature, Distinguished Gamer: Part 1 – Priorities by Games With Coffee – More people need to learn how to be mature and distinguished, not just on the gaming front either. I learned a lot from this blogger’s 4 volume guide.
IX) Coloring Pixels: clicking calm by Later Levels – Everything will be okay… everything will be okay…. Some days my anxiety just won’t listen to my logic. This game seems like a nice distraction from internal chaos.
X) Boldly Go Where No Video Game Has Gone Before by Video Games Nebula – This creative genius blogger always asks the most interesting questions and comes up with the most amusing video game related creative stories!
XI) Blogger Blitz: Shipping Wars Semifinals – Hotel Hijinks (Tyrande Whisperwind vs. Morgana) by Adventure Rules – I was knocked out of this year’s Blogger Blitz competition by my own mental health, but I’m glad to see my would-be opponent making waves! Both bloggers did a great job in this semifinal match. The real winner will always be Ian for those epic drawings.
XII) [GAME REVIEW] Pokémon Black and White by Extra Life Reviews – Few people on the internet can write an in-depth analysis of games like this blogger! I always enjoy and learn a lot from any Extra Life review I catch. I fell off the Pokemon train after the first 250-ish so it was nice to see what Black and White had to offer.
XIII) You Have Earned a Trophy: Not Being a Jerk About It by AmbiGaming – I do love me some Platinum trophies… I’m not a jerk about it, though, right? Right?? Seriously. Don’t be a jerk about gaming achievements. There is so much more to deal with in the world.
Games Completed in 2019: 9 (+0)
Games Newly Finished
Games Actively Played
Mass Effect 2
I’m happy to report I got through the Horizon mission on Insanity…. during a hurricane… and while my parents were watching since they took shelter from the storm at my place in the city! It was actually adorable to hear my mom ask “What game is that??” and then me explain how Mass Effect is kinda like a space soap opera where you shoot stuff. They haven’t watched me play video games since I was a kid. D’aww. When the power started flickering, I called it quits to avoid a corrupted save file. Yikes! My Platinum quest is currently on hold while I indulge in my new gaming obsession…
If all goes well, I’ll have an official first impressions post up this weekend. If not, here’s my quick bullet list of why I love this game so far:
- I can cosplay the MC as my shero.
- The fancy hats are so freaking fashionable.
- The companion character Vasco has already stolen my demiromantic heart (dude with the face tattoos in my screenshot above).
- The setting is intriguing and I see a lot of potential in the story.
- The combat is like Assassin’s Creed mixed with Dragon Age’s ability to freeze the battle.
- I’m playing on easy and will likely not go for the Platinum trophy. Just not feeling the urge so far with this game.
Isabella and Pichu Amiibo
I honestly can’t remember if I posted about these yet, so here they are! Pichu is adorable and very electric. The last thing I need is another version of Isabella, but hey, I’m all in at this point.
My coworker recently took a few weeks off to visit his family in Africa. I was super happy when he surprised me with these souvenirs from his trip! One day I hope to see the Great Pyramids for myself.
Books Read in 2019: 12 (+2)
A Storm of Swords by George R.R. Martin
A Feast for Crows by George R.R. Martin
A Dance With Dragons by George R.R. Martin
Chugging along with the famous A Song of Ice and Fire series, eh! I’m still at a loss for good words on how I feel about the books. There is so much darkness and graphic sex acts, but the overall world design has me quite intrigued. I’m loving how the female characters are becoming more powerful, and less used as an outlet for male characters to release their “manhood”. Ahem.
The evil devious people always win, and the good honest guys always lose. The survival of the fittest law at its most dramatic.
Movies Watched in 2019: 3 (+0)
TV Shows Watched in 2019: 1 (+0)
Life & Other Things
Here’s the depressing trinity of sad life things that made me meltdown last Friday at work. Yeah. I hit my feels coping limit… hard. A good buddy at work gave me a hug and a pep talk that helped immensely. We are the only people we will have for the rest of our lives. Might as well enjoy being us while we can, eh?
My coastal province of Canada got slammed by a Category 2 Hurricane named Dorian last weekend. That was incredibly scary and knocked out my power for 47 hours. I used the time to overthink and take a few road trips to charge my phone and Switch. I’m glad my power is back.
I was also happy my parents left their middle of nowhere estate and stayed at my place during the storm. The company was most welcome and I didn’t have to worry about them. Ironically, they got their power back before I did… huh. Here are the videos I took from my apartment window.
Yes. This was terrifying and destroyed a lot of trees (and a construction crane we are calling the Hurri-crane), but Nova Scotia’s experience is NOTHING compared to what Dorian did in the Bahamas at full strength. My thoughts are with all the people who lost someone to the storm.
I had a follow up MRI to check on my brain lesions a few weeks back. No word from my neurologist thus far. No news is good news, right? I’m struggling with depression and anxiety at the moment as well. I hope that’s the root cause of random vertigo spells that have been coming and going lately. Thank goodness for GreedFall to distract me from all this!
The Importance of Friendship
The thing that is bugging me the most currently is a situation that very much sucks between me and one of my treasured BFFs. I’ve been all but completely door-slammed from this person’s life (and rightfully so… I understand).
The lack of closure (and feeling like I don’t exist to them) is wreaking havoc on my anxiety. This person is very important to me and they feel like immediate family. I’ve confided a lot to them in the past, they’ve been beyond supportive of everything I’ve been going through, and that missing connection is hurting me more than I realized. They’re also going through a lot in their own life and I wish I could do something to help them.
Friends are important. You hear a lot about breakups in romantic partnerships (I’ve heard many a psycho ex story from several friends, let me tell you), but you don’t hear about how devastating the loss of a close friendship can be. I’ve never had one of those romantic relationship thingys so friends will always be the top humans in my social circle. I can’t change what happens, or say anything that will help the situation. I can only respect the final outcome when Schrodinger’s Friendship Future box is opened. That was lame and I am sorry. Ahem. Powerlessness sucks a lot.
So, if that person happens to stumble upon this blog post (if they even read my blog), I just want them to know I will respect whatever they decide. I’ll continue to support them as best I can while giving them the space they requested. I pray they will give me closure, for better or worse, whenever they have fully thought things out. If they’re no longer a part of my story, I wish them a wonderful and amazing future on this planet. I am truly sorry for my part in everything that has happened to destroy this close connection.
And, thank you for helping me through the latest chapter of my life. I would have never gotten through it without your support, my friend. I hope I helped you through some of your story as well.
There you have it! My monthly progress post thingy. What’s anyone reading this up to these days? Comments section is down below if you want to share your thoughts on things!
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