Back in the day (Earth year 2017 to be exact), the talented folks over at Later Levels asked the wonderful blogging community questions every month is a challenge aptly called Question of the Month. In September 2017, the big question was this:
I enjoyed answering the question on my long deleted old blog (That was the first time I deleted my blog, by the way… I’m recovering from my second deletion presently. Go me!), thus have now remastered my answer on Livid Lightning for no reason at all. Enjoy!
The bulk of this article was written for and originally posted on AmbiGaming Corner, and here it is on my website with a lot of tweaks/additions! Definitely check out Athena Veta’s great content on AmbiGaming and consider supporting her Video Game Relevancy Crusade (TM) on Patreon, if ya got a few bucks to spare.
People come, and no matter how much we don’t want to let it happen, people leave our lives for various reasons. Our life events shape us, change us, and force us to evolve. The only person you will have for that whole life journey is you. It’s important to appreciate the special relationships that come along, but never take them for granted. None of us are here forever, anyway.
It can be downright devastating when you lose a special relationship (close friend, family member, partner, etc.), but it’s important to remember you are never alone. Things will get better with time and the proper application of coping skills. Never destroy yourself just because someone else hurt you or doesn’t want you in their life anymore. I’m not going to lie. Right now, I’m nursing quite the huge wound in my soul from the acceptance of the loss of one of my best friends.
I’m not going to give in to my storm negative emotions and shut away from the world. I’m going to embrace the positive energy flowing around me. My friend and I may never talk again, but I loved that close friendship at its best. I’m going to treasure the good times I shared with that person forever, and I will eventually be able to forgive myself for everything that went horribly wrong.
Closed doors can always reopen with time. This recent experience triggered me to reach out to another lost best friend I had quietly door-slammed 8 years ago (INFJ problems). Guess what? They missed me too and now we’re reconnecting as if nothing happened. Time both heals and destroys. You just have to learn how to go with the flow.
In the present time, I can do nothing but move on while processing my emotions in a healthy way. And that’s going to involve my favourite method of escapism: Video Games!!
Back in the day (Earth year 2017 to be exact), the talented folks over at Later Levels asked the wonderful blogging community questions every month is a challenge aptly called Question of the Month. In October 2017, the big question was this:
My blogger tag To Do list is outta control, man. For the record, I love everyone who thinks to tag me in these chain letters… I mean, Blogger Tags/Awards. It’s just my response time ranges from almost forever to never. I need to be in the right mood to write about stuff, I guess? I’m also old now and I forget what I was tagged in if I don’t bookmark it right away… and what is proper sentence structure? I’m seriously a mess over here.
Anyway, I’m going to try to work on that! Don’t beat yourself up over mistakes, just be better. And what better place to start than this fabulous female empowered tag from the always cool Kelly over at Why We Play Games (thanks, girl).
Yes. Yes, I do see many opportunities to mention Final Fantasy XIII with this one. No. No, I’m not sorry.
Look at me experiencing new things in reality. From July 3rd-8th I had the pleasure of visiting The Great American State of New Jersey on a first time leaving Canada vacation adventure (TM)!
Not gonna lie, those now long passed few days in the USA were some of the best days of my life. Getting away from my boring routine in lil ol’ Nova Scotia and seeing people in reality did wonders for my depressed old soul. The biggest highlight of the entire trip was meeting two of my closest blogger buddies offline for the fist time: Athena of AmbiGaming and The Shameful Narcissist. I can now confirm that these two are total badasses in reality! Definitely give their online blogs a follow.
Wow, though. The whole trip is something I never want to forget, and my terrible memory is already shedding details like crazy. I’ve decided to do one of those fancy travel blog thingys and here it is:
LightningEllen’s Adventures in New Jersey, and New York City. It’s like one of my video game babblethroughs except it’s real life stuff. Enjoy!
ZOMG! Super huge shout-out to Omar over at Drakulus.com for inviting me to be a guest on his latest podcast episode. It was so much fun chatting with him… and also so, so far outside of my comfort zone to verbally talk over the internet instead of type words. I had a blast talking to him!
Check it out below.
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I’m so sorry, internet, but my mind is a freaking mess, no matter how hard I try to fix it. I haven’t been able to social media at all this past week… just focusing on work (busier than usual) and a neat IRL side project with an old college buddy (tight deadline on that one). My moods are all over the place: irrational rage, sadness, hopelessness, intense feelings of isolation, and my anxiety levels have been way over 9,000.
It’s a definite pattern with me. I’m on top of the world for a while, then I crash hard, push everyone away because it feels like they are pushing me away, feel lonely, feel bad about everything, feel really happy again… cycle repeats.
Anyway, detailed personal whining about the whys of what’s bugging me incoming. Feel free to ignore this post. I’ve hinted a bit about some medical things I’ve had going on lately, and this is the full lowdown now that my brain has finally snapped (again). I guess I just need to vent on the internet with this post. The important thing is that I didn’t delete myself from the internet this time. A definite improvement!
Reader discretion is also strongly advised since this post contains coarse language and depressing themes.