Year Walk’s Bizarre Terror

The bulk of this article was written for and originally posted on AmbiGaming Corner, and here it is on my website with some tweaks! Definitely check out Athena Veta’s great content on AmbiGaming and consider supporting her Video Game Relevancy Crusade (TM) on Patreon, if ya got a few bucks to spare.

Oh boy… Year Walk. Yikes. Where to begin with this one. Earlier this year while being lost in the never-ending Witcher 3: Wild Hunt world for a while (say the first part of this sentence out loud… I’ll wait), I decided to clear a few short games. Mostly just to feel like I was accomplishing something. Games are fun to play but it’s also rewarding to beat them sometimes, you know?

Horror ain’t usually my thang, to be honest, but I figured a short scarefest based on a real life tradition would be a neat and endurable experience. Using video games to learn things is fun! Getting creeped out… not so much for me, but I get that lots of folks like that.

Year Walk 2
Oh, Maker…. what did I walk into here…. 😱

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Things on the XIIIth: October 2019

Welcome to my monthly progress post that happens on the 13th, which marks the start of a new fiscal month here on Livid Lightning. Get it? XIII is my favourite number… because I like Final Fantasy XIII a lot? Jeez… tough crowd.

And a new chapter of my blogging life begins! Wait…

What?? Nothing happened, I swear. My domain has always ended in .blog… and I so didn’t delete my old WordPress and social media accounts… honest. Sigh. I did. I’ll vent about what happened in more detail in my Life Things section below, but this meme just about sums up what caused my latest self-destruct sequence.

Fear of Abandonment Meme

I pressed the left button on a very close friend who seemed done with me, backpedaled like a sledgehammer to the right button, pressed the left button again in defeat, and now I don’t know what the meaning of life is anymore. Ahem.

Including intense soul-crushing personal relationship pain, here’s how Fiscal Month October 2019 went! Why?? *sobs uncontrollably* …sniffs. I’m good. It’ll all be alright. Oh, and Happy Canadian Thanksgiving weekend! I’m visiting my family and eating turkey. Great coping mechanisms. Gobble, gobble, eh…

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The Importance of Imaginary Idols

The bulk of this article was written for and originally posted on AmbiGaming Corner, and here it is on my website with a lot of tweaks/additions! Definitely check out Athena Veta’s great content on AmbiGaming and consider supporting her Video Game Relevancy Crusade (TM) on Patreon, if ya got a few bucks to spare.

People come, and no matter how much we don’t want to let it happen, people leave our lives for various reasons. Our life events shape us, change us, and force us to evolve. The only person you will have for that whole life journey is you. It’s important to appreciate the special relationships that come along, but never take them for granted. None of us are here forever, anyway.

It can be downright devastating when you lose a special relationship (close friend, family member, partner, etc.), but it’s important to remember you are never alone. Things will get better with time and the proper application of coping skills. Never destroy yourself just because someone else hurt you or doesn’t want you in their life anymore. I’m not going to lie. Right now, I’m nursing quite the huge wound in my soul from the acceptance of the loss of one of my best friends.

I’m not going to give in to my storm negative emotions and shut away from the world. I’m going to embrace the positive energy flowing around me. My friend and I may never talk again, but I loved that close friendship at its best. I’m going to treasure the good times I shared with that person forever, and I will eventually be able to forgive myself for everything that went horribly wrong.

Closed doors can always reopen with time. This recent experience triggered me to reach out to another lost best friend I had quietly door-slammed 8 years ago (INFJ problems). Guess what? They missed me too and now we’re reconnecting as if nothing happened. Time both heals and destroys. You just have to learn how to go with the flow.

In the present time, I can do nothing but move on while processing my emotions in a healthy way. And that’s going to involve my favourite method of escapism: Video Games!!

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Things on the XIIIth: August & September 2019

Welcome to my monthly progress post that happens on the 13th (unless I miss a month… twice in a row… oops), which marks the start of a new fiscal month here on Livid Lightning. Get it? XIII is my favourite number… because I like Final Fantasy XIII a lot? Jeez… tough crowd.

Hello, my treasured internet readers and valued view-generating spam-bots!

I’ve been a mess again, as usual, and think I’ve recovered from my latest emotional meltdown. That life thing is crazy, man. I’ll babble about some things that have been bugging me in my “Life & Other Things” section, if you are at all interested in reading me whine about stuff.

Simpsons Internet Coping Meme
I’m not sure if memes and social media are the greatest of coping mechanisms, but they are making me slightly feel less sad and alone right now.

I consider 13 my lucky number. So it being Friday the 13th with a full moon makes it an extra special day for me. Here’s to hoping the universe sends those good vibes to anyone who needs them!

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Things on the XIIIth (Sorry, XXth): April 2019

Welcome to my monthly progress post that (usually) happens on the 13th, which marks the start of a new fiscal month here on Livid Lightning (but not this month). Get it? XIII is my favourite number… because I like Final Fantasy XIII a lot? Jeez… tough crowd.

True story: The Final Fantasy games have taught me roman numerals. That’s how I know 20 is XX (I’m right, right??). Not sure how useful that knowledge is in today’s world, but oh well. Anyway, here’s the late edition of my blog’s fiscal month update! Happy 4/20 to all my stoner friends out there too, by the way. Not my jam, to be honest, but if it makes you happy, blaze it responsibly, eh!

Things on the XXth

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Critical Warning: Mental Health Meltdown Imminent!!

Homer Simpson Meltdown
Ahhhhh!!! Wut do I do???

I’m so sorry, internet, but my mind is a freaking mess, no matter how hard I try to fix it. I haven’t been able to social media at all this past week… just focusing on work (busier than usual) and a neat IRL side project with an old college buddy (tight deadline on that one). My moods are all over the place: irrational rage, sadness, hopelessness, intense feelings of isolation, and my anxiety levels have been way over 9,000.

It’s a definite pattern with me. I’m on top of the world for a while, then I crash hard, push everyone away because it feels like they are pushing me away, feel lonely, feel bad about everything, feel really happy again… cycle repeats.

Anyway, detailed personal whining about the whys of what’s bugging me incoming. Feel free to ignore this post. I’ve hinted a bit about some medical things I’ve had going on lately, and this is the full lowdown now that my brain has finally snapped (again). I guess I just need to vent on the internet with this post. The important thing is that I didn’t delete myself from the internet this time. A definite improvement!

Reader discretion is also strongly advised since this post contains coarse language and depressing themes.

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RiME ⚡Review

RiME Review 9

Platform Played On: Switch
Developer: Tequila Works
Publisher: Grey Box, Six Foot
Genre: Puzzle Adventure
Release Date: November 14, 2017

Wannabe Writer’s Note: This is the re-posting of the RiME Review I wrote on my old website. This article was originally posted on April 7, 2018. Enjoy past me’s unedited ramblings!

Games that care about things… I love games that care about things! With promises of an epic emotional experience that deals with the difficult topic of grief, I was expecting something special. I also read numerous criticisms about technical faults and “terrible” level designs. Well, I go into every game with an open mind to avoid disappointment and with the hope of being pleasantly surprised. I had already made my mind up that I was getting the game so I ignored the internet crying about technical imperfections. The best way for me to know if I’ll like something is if I actually play it myself. RiME seemed more than worth taking a chance on so I did. I had to, especially with that cute fox I kept seeing in the screenshots people were sharing!

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